He Finally Left Me..

It finally happened. I have received countless warnings that it was going to happen, but I chose to live in my lalaland and pretend that it would never happen to me. I chose to ignore those signs even when it was staring right at my face. Finally it happen. He died.

Even in the throes of his death, I was in complete denial. Even after countless fruitless attempts to resuscitate him, I still believed that it could not be happening to me. I never ever thought that it could happen to me.

After 2 days of failed attempts, from me and other so called specialist, I finally faced the truth. He actually died. He actually left me, alone and lonely. I did not shed any tear. I just sat in disbelief, numb and shocked. At a complete loss of words. How could he die??? No way.. he could never leave me.. Sure, I never treated him like other people treat theirs - I was rough, I was crude, I was demanding. But after so many years, I thought he has gotten used to me, and accepted that that was the way I showed him that I cared for him. But I guess he could not stand my abuse any longer. On a bleak Wednesday morning, he simply quit on me. I stroked his body, I pushed all his buttons. I cajoled him, I pleaded to him. There was just no response.

So after a week, I have finally accepted the truth. My PC died. My Compaq NX9000, who has been with me for almost 4 years, decided to go to PC heaven. All that is left is a black empty screen, mocking me with 4 simple words : "operating system not found". 40GB worth of data, vanished into the unknown world on sillicons. Where did all of you go?? Come on.. I still need you.. dont tell me all 40GB worth of you can simply vanish in a single click?