Wednesday, November 03, 2010

This Fragile Life


Today, a friend is battling for his life. This friend is my mentor, my teacher, my guidance. Yesterday he was smiling and laughing his boisterous booming laugh and making his stupid, often crass, jokes. Today he is hooked up to countless tubes and wires, with morphine pumped into him to spare him the pain, his body mangled, broken and bruised beyond recognition. Such is this fragile life. 

His 3 girls sit crying for their papa, his wife sobbing for her mate that has been her source of strength for as long as she can remember. 

Never have I thought would I be so affected by his tragedy; I haven't, after all, seen or spoken to him in many many months. But to hear of this man that is so full of energy and so full of zest for life now lying helplessly while they try to save him, is more than I can handle. Even if he makes it, doctors are saying that part of his brain is damaged. Even he survives, one eye would not be able to see. How much more the damage would affect him, no one knows just yet. We are just hoping, praying. We all just want him to get up and give his silly grin of his.

My only regret is that I never got around to telling him how much he means to me. I took for granted that he would be around forever, so I put off telling him time and time again. As I sit in this ICU chair, I craft in my head the words that I would say to him when he gets up. I vow to let him know that he has made a huge difference in my life. I swear that I will thank him for all that he has taught me. Never again will I put if off.


5th Nov 2010:
On the dawn of Friday, Haji Abd Malek Aziz passed away after 2 days battling with his injuries. I never got to tell him what I wanted to tell him.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

waiting

the baby is due today via c-section. am waiting for the hospital's matron to call me. I've called already but no reply yet.....aaaarrghhhh....waiting is the horrible part. I thought I had managed to lie myself into not hoping too much, don't get too excited...but today, D-day is here and i'm starting to freak out a bit...what if she changes her mind???????? I'm in the office, believe it or not, just finally managed to finish up work and set out the to do list, only just beginning to learn how to delegate. ohmyGod-ohmyGod-ohmyGod, is the baby here yet or not? ok, think i better go down and eat something while i still have some sanity left.

walaumacamanapun, kita minum dulu!